Yesterday was the start of the Writing from the Core 21 day challenge.
After I got the prompt, I procrastinated on writing. I felt apprehensive about actually writing about my topic, so instead I checked my Facebook notifications, then my email, then I wrote a blog post, and then I went out to get burgers and ice cream. Then, I checked Facebook again. But I knew it was time to stop stalling, so I wrote.
It was hard. I wrote explicitly about things I don’t usually. I thought about touches that bothered me, and when and how and why. I thought about partners I’d had and the behaviours I exhibited in those relationships. I wrote it down, nervous and uncomfortable. They can never see this, I thought. It’ll only hurt them.
This exercise is seriously uncomfortable. As I’m writing, just thinking about this trauma around touch is making me itchy. I don’t want to do it. But I need to.
Today’s prompt is: Do they mean me harm? The obvious answer is no, they don’t; yet, my feelings are too complicated for that level of simplicity. And that’s why I’m grateful for this experience.
It’s called a challenge for a reason. It’s not meant to be easy.
Is there something challenging you right now? Is it time to confront it?
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Tessara, not to spy on you, but I thank you so much for writing about how you are experiencing this challenge!
I don’t mind. Thank you for putting it on! 🙂
Thank you for joining me! 🙂